Of lies and karma

I'm not really sure how's it's one's business to be upset at me for doing something any single woman would do on her time. but i'm trying to understand. i'm trying to understand why i get so much crap from you for doing the same thing you did to me a couple of years ago when we were together, whereas i did what i did as a single unattached person.

but it doesn't matter now. we've cleared the air. we've called it even. what's important that we're still what we are: best friends. no matter what everyone else thinks, despite people saying exes can be friends. they don't know us. they don't what we've been through, what made us who we are now, what bonded us.

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Candles for the dead

Today i mourn the death of a dream, a dream i did not know could have turned into reality had i not let it go. I wish i didn't but i did. And all i can really do now is move forward taking with me the lessons i learned.

05.28.10

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Over the years

It's been 8 years since i graduated from college. A lot has changed. I fell in love hard, got broken into a pieces and put myself back together again. I gave up a what could have been the most wonderful blessing in exchange for something i didn't know i'd lost anyway. I fell in love with my best friend and got over him. I've travelled the country. I've travelled Asia. I've met great friends. I've been bullied by a bitch and became a bitch myself. I've mentors who helped me excel in the field i am in. I'm almost done paying for the house my sister and i bought. I am respected at my job. I am respected by my peers.

A lot had changed since 2005. I'm a whole new person. I'd like to believe i've lived a meaningful life so far. Question is: Why do i feel like something's still missing?

Courage

The most courageous act is still to speak for yourself. OUTLOUD.

--coco chanel

Losing grip

They say the easiest way to lose something is to hold on too tight. So i'll loosen my grip for a while. Give you some breathing room, some time to think. Because i can't lose you. Nine years of friendship is just too precious to let go of just because i'm threatened by someone who may as well be me, only 7 years younger.

And i guess my main concern here is that this feels familiar. and i don't want history to repeat itself. I don't want to be edged out right under my nose. Not on my watch. Not anymore.

Mad

I realized early on that i'm an angry person. Breathing in and out usually works. But i can only exhale so much. Can't i catch a break for once and breathe easy for a change?

somwhere along the way

somewhere along the way i think i gave you the power to make me feel like shit.

nakakabaliw na to. ang hirap pag ang taong pede mong takbuhan ay ang taong nagdulot ng sakit sayo.