i't been a almost a week now since i have felt this sense of peace. it could be indifference but it kinda feels good to not worry about the why's and what if's and i wishes. this time i really felt that whatever happened between us, they were all meant to happen. intentional or not.

i hope this really is a good sign. i hope i really am reaching a plateau.

please let this last long. or forever.

breathing easy

somehow i'm breathing easy. knowing how miserable she was being away from him made me realize that she does love him. and i have nothing to worry about. he picked the right one.

knowing that she's good for him is enough for him. they love each other so much, who could get in a way of that. i certainly wouldn't. i'm a romantic. i'm all for love.

i hope this feeling stays. i don't wanna have to go through depression again.

backseat

taking a backseat has always been so easy for me. because i always understand. i understand to point that people assume i always do. it's a curse.

wow, i never thought it's gonna be this hard.

3 years had passed...

it's been 3 years since i last posted and a lot had happened. a lot. as in life-changing moments and decisions a lot.

how do you even recap that?

all i know is i'm a whole new person compared to the one from 2008. a lot different than what i'd ever imagine i'd be in 2011 at 26.

so in my own little way, i'll start. may this be a therapy that would finally work. a therapy that would help me forgive myself and you.