relearning the unlearnable

i officially have a suitor (after some long 2 years and 3 months).

actually, we've know each other for like months now but this was the first time we saw each other.

you see, he was the brother of my sister's friend and this friend gave him my number. so we texted and texted until the day he asked me if he can court me. i was surprised and irritated at the same time. i mean who the heck courts through text? i mean. i have nothing against it, i just don't think it will work for me. so we stopped texting and went back to our old lives.

surprisingly, after 3 months, he began texting me again until i finally met him last Saturday. he's okay. but something i realized about being single for too long is that you wouldn't get to cope easily when someone potentially special works his way into your life. or was it just me? i don't know. i think i need to relearn these stuff about how to act around a suitor. don't want to mess this one up.

again, i think he's okay. he's kinda smart and at ease and confident. but what do i do if it won't work out? how will i break it to him? how will i break it to his sister who's my friend, by the way? i mean, should i test it out for like 3 months and see what happens after? or should i just dump him now? can i propose something like "dating without exclusivity"? that would work for me. wold that work for him?

what the heck happened to me? it's not like he's my first suitor or something. but i want to make this right and if i'm gonna do it, i want to do it the right way. as my mom said, "oh, baguhin mo na strategy mo ah?" (yup, because they never liked my ex-boyfriend of 2 years and 7 months, that's why.)