i'm the bitter cat lady..without any cats

after much prodding and reluctance, i finally convinced myself to watch "my best friend's wedding" once again. about a month ago, i tried watching it after i went home from the office but realized that it was still too painful for me to do so. yes, i may be too melodramatic. it's just a movie, right? what harm can it to do me?

Truth is, in real life, i'm like julianne. i am in love with my once-"almost"-lover-turned-best-friend.

when i first watched the movie, it felt like it's going to have a happy ending and i love happy endings! in this world of disappointments, it's one of the few things you can hold on to. so it's an easy guess that i was drawn to the plot. i can't wait to see how all this would end. i mean who wouldn't want to end up marrying your best friend in the world?

but reality smacked me right in the face when the plot is slowly concluding. who would have thought the story would end so, so un-"happily ever after"? the movie ends when julianne realizes that her best friend, michael is truly in love with kimmy, the woman he's marrying, decides to let go and make her best friend happy by getting them back together.

don't i sound bitter? yes i do. 3 years into this crazy shit hole and i still can't face the fact that i love him and that he loves someone else. plus, the movie represents every single cliche about reality and love that i can think of:

• man wants what he cannot have.
• not all stories have happy endings.
• happy endings don't happen in real life...
• and the list goes on and on...

it symbolizes everything that's there but i chose not or refuse to see. so yes, i'm the bitter cat lady..but without any cats.